I thought I was strong enough, that I could handle pain and that I didn't need help, but I did not know my depression was out of my hands.
One day while searching on the internet for "how to kill yourself", the reality really struck home.
It's okay to ask for help and talk to someone so that they can help one as some things are bigger than us and we can't handle it alone, but I was naïve.
I ignored my guilt consciously and continued with the "I'm okay syndrome…" I found myself lying next to my bed with a container of pills next to me.
I had seriously thought of overdosing myself but that was when I realised that I can't do this to myself, yet I still didn't tell anyone that I needed help. I tried to run away - but that didn't work.
Now I am home safe and sound because I have learnt to talk about my feelings and that keeping things to myself won't help me. I am done with bottling up myself.
This letter was written by one survivor who has undergone therapeutic services at Famsa. The organisation aims to encourage victims who have been violated through sexual abuse to know there is life after rape and abuse and that help is available.
Famsa renders a specialised service for adult victims of any sexual crimes and violence. A trained social worker renders individual counselling services to victims, as well as a support group. The aim of the counselling is to help victims work through the trauma and become stronger. We have offices in Thembalethu, Conville, Rosemoor, Pacaltsdorp, Blanco and in town. Famsa can be contacted on 044 874 5811. Phone for a confidential appointment.